Empty, Unkempt Promises

Empty, Un-kept Promises

 

My life has been chock full of men who have done nothing but make empty promises (father, brother, cousin, friend, lover)…but my Great grandmother always taught me that a promise was a comfort to a fool. So, I guess I'm a fool…

AM I a fool, though? I'm a woman of my word; if I say I'm going to do something for you, come hell or high water, I'm going to do it. I also believe a person is only as good as their word…so if one keeps saying things that they DON'T do, then what does that say about the person?

 

Granted, circumstances may arise that prevent a promise from being kept: monetary issues, life issues, personal issues, etc…but my question is, when do you STOP giving the "benefit of the doubt", and start holding someone accountable for their actions?

 

I am very understanding, and simple to please. I understand "shit" happens…it happens to me, too. But why do people think that things that go unsaid, just disappear? There will always be that pink elephant in the room if things aren't addressed, and as my irritation and anger grows, so will the damn elephant. And the bigger it gets, the less room there is in the room…and someone has to leave. I can tell you with confidence that it WON'T be me.

 

Situations such as these make you question yourself. Am I worth not keeping promises to? While I'm sitting here performing the Golden Rule, is that all they're using me for? I am a giving person, especially to the ones I feel deserve it, but when that person has all these grandiose ideas that they're going to return the favor, and it doesn't happen…does that mean I'm unappreciated?

God placed in me this enormously giving heart, but I guess I've yet to learn when to pull on the reigns of it, to know when to slow down, to know when to stop before I get hurt.

 

But I think it's a sad time when you can't count on the word of the ones you love…after that, what's there to hold on to, hope? Hope is for suckers in fairytales…